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i've been watching you a while since you walked into my life
Friday, March 25, 2005 Hm, I'm interested in started another group blog called Element, where each person has an element that represents them. I used to be part of two or three group blogs but they either closed down or people stopped coming. Anyone interested in Element please comment and say so. Thanks. Stephanie performed at 10:36 a.m.
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Sunday, February 27, 2005 Haruka's very right. Love is beautiful, whether I want to acknowledge that or not. It's unpredictable, maybe that's what I dislike about it. I don't know what will happen next, which is scary, so I retreat to the darkness where there's nothing and everything at the same time, so what will happen will happen. Beauty is also delicate, so love must be delicate. If you accidently drop love on the floor will it break into a million pieces? Would it be possible to mend it together with only words used as glue? Romantic love isn't the only love out there, and I guess I forget that a lot. Maybe I also forget I am loved, by my friends and family. Just not romantically, nor by myself. I'm afraid to get close to people, so afraid to feel I do everything I can so I don't have to, but is it really that much better to be alone? You think you're alone but your not, your not alone. Because it;s impossible to ever truly be alone, even when you think you are, someone's always loves you. Even if you don't know it. In the dark though, there's nothing. Nothing but one's self, and it's hard to imagine the light, the purity that love must be. And when you've never seen the light before, it hurts. Stephanie performed at 09:22 p.m.
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Sunday, February 6, 2005 Yuck. Valentine's Day is coming up. It depresses me. Really. A day for love? Ha. You make me laugh Saint Valentine. I wouldn't know love if it came up and bit me in the ass. Maybe I did think I was in love once. Or maybe I was just so happy that someone was showing me affection in a romantic way. I have loved before. I loved my best friend, until I finally figured out it was sisterly love and not romantic. You know what I think? Love is a game for two in which both come out losers. Or one cheats, doesn't play by the rules. Are there any? All's fair in love and war. War is violent and bloody, is love any more fair? You bleed on the inside, constant turmoil, and for what? To let down your walls, and rear yourself for rejection? I don't think so. I would rather die a horrible bloody death than let someone see what's inside of me. I just couldn't bear to get hurt again. Maybe I'll start a revolution. An anti valentine's day revolution. Oh well, at least secret cupid is coming up. Stephanie performed at 08:08 p.m.
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Saturday, January 1, 2005 Hm... this book report will prove to be very difficult for me. While... in actuality Ursula Le Guin's The Left Hand Of Darkness is pretty interesting... it's not in my nature to really search for a deeper meaning to this book. Okay... so... the people are genderless and living in a bisexual society. What was she trying to portray there? Well... there aren't gender boundries, all people have equal opportunities to do anything. (Like... one person could be the father of several children, and a mother of another). I wish it would just poof done already. I miss the good old days of summary writing... where my books were only 150 pages long, and I understood them... Stephanie performed at 07:13 p.m.
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Monday, December 20, 2004 hey, a new layout. wow, i'm amazed at my achievement. and it's chaos. as if... I didn't see that coming. Lol. Well, winter break has kicked off to a good start. I slept in until almost elevan. That's a record for me. I had to work yesterday for volleyball, 10 hours I was at the school. Five of those going around neighborhoods pasing out flyers. The other working snack bar which was soo boring. But I made $165 towards club. My mom's using $100 of it for the volleyball, but giving me the $65 so I can go Christmas shopping on Thursday. It might turn into a group thing, me, Candace, Blair, and Siena. Who knows? Guess what Candace got me for Christmas? Froggie socks, and a dancing singing frog that sings. ;) Stephanie performed at 02:51 p.m.
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----qui est la fille?---- stephanie is a fifteen year old girl from california. She can be bright and cheery, though is often dark and morbid. Listens to rock and metal. Agnostic, though believes in a higher power. Spiritual, but not religious. Interests include the occult, cartoons, and the arts. She likes both the girls and the boys which
would make her bisexual. stephanie also plays volleyball, and participates in
the drama crew. the email
----j'adore ma musique---- 001. Breach Birth - Chevelle 002. I'm Not Okay (I Promise) - My Chemical Romance 003. Wish I had an Angel - Nightwish 004. Drown - Three Days Grace 005. Look What You've Done - Jet
----quel est la date?---- march 019. 026. Concert at Boardwalk 027. Easter 028. Spring Break Ends
----this layout---- you are viewing version three of starfucked. The video game for the PS2 Xenosaga.
chaos as an angel. chaos is my all time favorite character, he's so beautiful, compassionate
and inspiring to me. Xenosaga is hard to explain, so I won't. Just know chaos is awesome. Image
is from Heaven Unsolved, brushes from sparkledays.net.
Some fonts are Nail Scratch, Celestian, Night sky, and Starry Night. Words are my random thoughts, that may or may not be chaos. more me
anyways.
----this blog---- formorly known as something else, it is now called starfucked in an attempt to keep my friends
and family in real life away from reading this. hopefully they won't think it's mine, because i'm
the 'non-cussing friend'. Savvy? First home was pitas,
than stepherz, then mandy, and now back to
pitas. Looking for a host.
----dailies---- Ani, Anne, Anubis, Atashia ., Charis, Chris, Celestie,
Damiano, Faith, Gerri, Ha, Haruka,
Hoshi, Jo,
Kaz,
Kieu, Lei, Lyz, Mandy, Roan, Ruka,
Saeko, Sana,
Sheila, Sky, Stepfanie, Yoshiko, Yumi
comment to link exchange. web logs prefurred.
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